narcissism fulfilled

June 16th, 2005

egoism.

Main Entry: ego·ismPronunciation: ‘E-g&-”wi-z&m also ‘e-Function: noun1 a : a doctrine that individual self-interest is the actual motive of all conscious action b : a doctrine that individual self-interest is the valid end of all actions2 : excessive concern for oneself with or without exaggerated feelings of self-importance

i have debated for awhile whether or not to have a blog. a huge part of me thinks that it is pretty arrogant to think that what i have to say is important enough for anyone to desire to read with everything else they could be doing. alongside with that is the fact that, if i didnt have a blog, i probably wouldn’t think to say or communicate most of the things that i will end up writing. so in my mind, my having a blog is basically admitting that i want to have a space of the internet for people to possibly read about my opinions or perspective on things that i wouldn’t probably communicate unless i had a blog.
oh well, call me arrogant i suppose.
but then there is another part of me that knows a lot of times there is so much going on in my mind, that unless i do have an outlet, whether it be face to face communication, writing a journal, or whatever else, i get frustrated that i can’t articulate it.
so if i go from that perspective, i have a blog to keep from frustrating myself due to not having an outlet to consistantly think things through. and thats healthy… right?
that, at least on the surface, seems less self-absorbed.
assuming of course, what thoughts/idea’s/etc. i have are worth even thinking, much less posting publicly.
this should be interesting….
(there i go again… assuming..)
-stephen